Sunday, July 26, 2015

This weekend I should've been studying for finals, and instead I went to Kansas City.


Okay, I was going on a date? A meeting? Hanging out with friends? I'm not sure what you call these things nowadays, but I ended up calling it a double date. With my friends Aly and Dom, parents of the sweet baby above.

The date? Wellll we won't really get into that here, but basically I'm realizing I'm a really "intense" person (this has been a realization over the past year), and I think that affects a lot of my life and relationships. But I don't really know how to rein it in yet (because that's who I am) or how much I even want to rein it in because...well, I've been working hard on learning to LIKE ME. So.

The more interesting part of the weekend was how encouraged I felt leaving. Post-formal-missionary life has been difficult for me (as we all know). Since school has started I've done a great job of taking care of myself physically, but not spiritually. The irony that I'm a former campus mish turned college student with a weak sauce prayer life is not lost on me. And I often feel confused about my life since I'm currently 25 and a sophomore in college (again!). My life feels weird and strange and unlike everyone I know.

I was so encouraged to be a fly on the wall at Alyson and Dominic's house and watch them take care of their little one, do family routines, pray together, and eat meals. I did normal stuff with Aly all day on Saturday and it was great. I heard snippets about how committed both she and her husband were to prayer. And I was encouraged. I was able to witness a couple radically living for Jesus Christ, in small normal everyday things and in big lifestyle family things. And it was beautiful. At one point I heard Aly say, "I just know that God loves us. And takes care of us. I'm not worried."

I'm so quick to forget and wonder and doubt and it was so encouraging to see my friends-real people-quietly working out their salvation with fear and trembling.

Also I really love being called Aunt Kate, taking selfies with that sweet little one, and teaching her tricks.

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