5 Years Ago I Got Engaged.

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Five years ago today, my mom was sick. Five years ago today, she sat on a bar stool in the kitchen and told my dad and me what to cook and when. Five years ago today, we prepared for my boyfriend's family to come over for Christmas Eve lunch.

Five years ago today he got down on one knee and asked me to spend the rest of my life with him.

Five years ago today I said yes.

Five years later, I have no ring on my finger.

Because four and half years ago I looked at reality and made the hardest decision I've ever made, and I walked away from everything I thought I ever wanted.

I see so many people getting engaged around the holidays-Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year's-and I just wish I could tell them that it's okay to say no. It's okay to walk away if you know something's not right. It's a good, admirable thing to look at reality and follow Jesus where He is calling, even if it is hard. 

I don't regret walking away. Some days I feel like I do-those are the days that I remember only the good. Some days I wonder why I stayed so long-those are the days I remember only the bad. I'm still learning how to see the whole picture (things were never all-good nor all-bad), and I'm still learning how to heal.

I am amazed at what Jesus has done with my life in the past 3 years since I've been really committed to letting Him work in my life. He's done amazing things in me and through me. I've grown in ways I'd never thought I would have. I've got to move halfway across the country. I've met awesome people.

And I'm excited to think about where I'll be five years from now. 

Go Go Gadget: Healthy Living.

Friday, August 2, 2013

Sooo. I jumped on bandwagon.

I guess.

I've been wanting to be healthier... for since as long as I can remember.

Just this year alone I tried doing a 3-day juice fast and doing Paleo. And both were so hard! I loved knowing I was putting good things in my body, but I hated how I felt towards the end of Day 1 and allll day Day 2--like I was dying. The toxins coming out of my body were reeking havoc and making it so very hard for me to function. During the juice fast, I literally spent time most of my day lying in bed!

Right now I'm on Day 11 of Advocare's 24 Day Challenge. The first ten days were the "Cleanse Phase" which meant a fiber drink, clean eating (think paleo, plus beans), and additional supplements (omega fatty acids, probiotics [yay for putting stuff back in my tummy after flushing things out], an energy-ish drink, and a meal replacement shake).

My thoughts?

I've only lost 2 lbs. Which almost made me cry. I'm just so tired of being obese, and I know this is going to take a long time to fix, but I thought that eating MUCH better would have a bigger impact! Apparently the second phase "Max Phase" is where you really lose weight... we'll see! I haven't been exercising at all, so I can't really complain too much.

And the best part is that I haven't been eating TONS of sugar OR feeling like I'm going through withdrawal! SOOO that is a huge success. I'm eating no processed foods, and just a few grains (quinoa--no gluten here!). I'm excited to see how my body continues to do without fast food, fried food, or gluten, or dairy!

I'm hoping that this will be a good platform for me to work on being healthy. I'm hoping to start CrossFit when I move to Statesboro, and I think that will make a big difference!! Time will tell...